Misunderstanding

So in the real world I have placed a filter on my mouth but here in the blog world I'm free to say whatever I please. And after recents events I must say that Men have a way of making things extra complicated. I'm a black and white type chick I do not like to play in the grey area even if it does include a nice incentive. Men say we woman think to much, well I say yall don't think enough and when you do think you still forget to use common sense. Ugh why can't things be simple, boy likes girl, girl likes both, they get to know each other, agreed that they are able to be in the same room without things getting hectic or complicated and then press forward..... But of course nothing is simple in life. Both parties play dumb to the fact that their is an elephant in the room and keep trying to move forward

Long time coming

Not sure what honestly brought me back to this site, but I feel like what got me through a lot of things when I was little was writing, so why not come back to the thing that helped me to escape. Reading and writing has always been a safe place for me to just be myself and to escape. Lately I have been so boggled down with other things that I don't have a chance to read or write. Now don't get me wrong, school keeps me busy with textbooks and papers but nothing that I personally want to do. I've come to enjoy several tv shows recently which makes me want to go out and buy the book to see how well it follows along. Hmm I think that I might try to force a chapter a day from one of my favorite books. I keep slipping out of 50 shades of grey, my attention is always being pulled elsewhere.

Turning Point

9/30-10/1 Has truly been a turning point in my life. Just when i thought i had everything figured out, life throws a curve ball. All one can do is try to pick themselves back on and just continue to move forward. But where does forward even take you or better yet which way is forward. I'm confused beyond belief right now, a person that i thought i could trust, that i thought cared, has truly disappointed me. Im guess im so surprised and it really hurts, because i actually thought i had found someone who was different. Silly rabbit tricks are for kids and Love is for fairy tales. I hope one day late in life my perspective on this changes but for now ill just sit here in the dark and try to enjoy the silence

GOD IS GOOD

GOD IS GOOD! Is the only proper way to start off this blog regardless of whatever outside circumstances might surround me. Today I was on the phone with 4 different companies in reference to employment. Im thankful because I'm being given an opportunity that many are not able to have and I plan on maximzinig this to the best of my advantage.

Vent

I havent been this mad in a minute and I don't see myself calming down anytime soon, sigh.... I won't let this or anyone get the best of me, watching Dexter has taught me that there is a monster within all of us, but you must come to accept it and make friends with it, or you will forever be in a never-ending battle. Sometimes in order to not get hurt you must hurt others in the process, as cold as that sounds, I'm tired of self scarfing my happiness for others. It's time for a change of scenery and people, I can do this, I have to, I don't have a choice

two words

two words:

FAR AWAY....................

Description #3

background music: " Retired in 2009"
atmosphere: bedroom ( lights on, chillen in the bed)
mood: calm
feeling: relaxed
last thought: WAIT; while you are waiting focus on yourself
solution: pray
backup solution: do things that make MEGAN happy
pet peeve: letting others take advantage of my kindness
wish: that everything falls into place
need: to have a conversation with a particular person
want: to be healthy and happy
vibe: feeling out of place