360 FULL CIRCLE

today i read my 1st post that i ever wrote and damn I have came full circle, back where i started but under different circumstances, its just so much is happening at once, and don't get me wrong i consider myself to be a strong person but dang, i feel myself slowly cutting off from everything and everyone, and its sad, because the people that want to help me and be there for me, i push them the furthest away. I think its time that i just try and regroup, sometimes i wish that life was kind of like the movie " equilbrium" and everyone had to get their daily shots, emotions are a beautiful thing but they can also destroy and corrupt a human being. Sigh............. its crazy one of the main things that is bothering me, involves someone that I should be able to talk to but i can't, because its like i already know what they are going to say, and i refuse to accept that answer.