perspective

have you ever got the feeling that at a particular moment, that a particular situation had took a change of direction, well that is how i feel about a certain situation in my life, life nothing will ever be the same, and it is really bothering me, but at the end of the day there is nothing that I can do about it. Sigh.... kinda ending this year on an off note, and its so crazy because to me i started it on an amazing note, i remember bringing in the new year with a special someone at church and boy did i have a great experience, made me friends, got a good word, heard good music, i couldn't have brought in the year any different. The month of feb things started to get really hard because i had to say good bye to someone and things just took a tumble from there, and i have been trying to pick myself back up ever since. Don't get me wrong i have come a LONG way since then, but for some reason i just seem stuck in this hole that wants to consume me, and some days I want to let it, but the fighter in me won't let it.