8/23/2010 part 2

I'm the type of person whose mind is always wondering everywhere and who is constantly looking at her cellphone awaiting a text. In order to focus I need something to keep myself busy and sadly that shouldn't be the base. I should be able to sit in silence and just relax and i should be able to go a whole day without looking at my cellphone, or better yet not getting disappointed when i don't see a text from a certain someone. Normally I gauge my life in weeks, months and years. Never seconds, minutes, hours, and days. Starting today im going to try and change that. I'm going to slowly have to ween myself off of certain things. For the moment my goal is to just make it through the day, possibly by keeping myself busy with hw, chores, studying, reading the bible or whatever have you. As easy as this sounds its not, 24 hours to me is a LONG time but i am determine to get through this. Maybe i should start making a checklist for everyday or something, kind of like a block schedule....... I also have to stop with my negative thinking because it is not healthy. It has been holding me back from alot of blessings, but I don't want that to happen again, no let me repharse it WONT happen again. I know that I am going to have not so good days but maybe, just maybe my way of thinking can change that. I don't remember who said this quote but " sometimes you have to learn to dance in the rain".