in my bed

so i'm sitting here chillen in my bed, my stomach hurts, i'm hoping that the pain will go away soon, because its starting to get to me a little bit. Today was a little bit of an eye opener for me, found out some interesting news from someone, and whats crazy is, i joked about it like it would happen, but i never thought that it actually would. In all honesty im happy for the person though, they really do deserve the happiness that they are receiving right now, and i hope it last. In reference to myself, i have some pretty big decisions that I need to make, because the clock is ticking. I'm glad that i allowed myself to have options, im just not sure which option to choose, because of different factors and elements. At the end of the day, everyone says " Megan do what is best for you and is going to make you happy", well with that said, i would like to have the best of both worlds, the location and the person, but of course life doesn't work that way and who am I to try to go against the natural law of things. I guess in the words of John Legend " Heaven Only Knows "